happy forever => yi teng

谢谢你们爱我的每个人

2012-02-16T14:43:00.003+08:00

痛在眼中变成泪在心中变成灰
没有什么能安慰
怕被时间变成累被想像变成悲
希望都被粉碎
不安有时会崩溃有时会怨慰
好像怎么对待都不对
看得出你隐瞒多少的疲惫
却还是坚持着爱不断地加倍
让我感动也让我愧对
谢谢你们爱我的每个人
在我的人生最像一场恶梦的旅程
陪我挣脱勇敢地去醒来
当我的护卫为我祷告心灵更强韧
谢谢你们爱我的每个人
让我努力后可以谢谢自己很坦诚
会想不通或绝望到躲开
但你们做的终让我想坚强负责任
为了爱重生

心摆脱夜的黑往蓝天而飞
被阳光包围
只为了你一句我笑得好美
我忍住了太漫长的泪
看得出你隐瞒多少的疲惫
却还是坚持着爱不断地加倍
让我感动也让我愧对
谢谢你们爱我的每个人
在我的人生最像一场恶梦的旅程
陪我挣脱勇敢地去醒来
当我的护卫为我祷告心灵更强韧
谢谢你们爱我的每个人
让我努力后可以谢谢自己很坦诚
会想不通或绝望到躲开
但你们做的终让我想坚强负责任
为了爱重生

还好我从不孤单
有很爱很爱我的爸妈哥哥弟弟
谢谢你们陪我
陪我流这流不完的眼泪
陪我吃这吃不完的苦
陪我走这看不到尽头的路

谢谢你们
让我的每一小步越跨越大
我会一直往前走
谢谢你们

每当听到这首歌
都会有很多的感触
眼泪会不停的流
谢谢你们一直支持我勇敢地往前走

2011-10-15T01:53:00.001+08:00

为什么要让我遇见你？
为什么要伤害我？
我把我的全部都给了你。
为什么还让我哭泣？
你所带给我的伤害，
我要全部还给你。
不要说我是坏女人。
无法原谅。
爱情太让人痛苦...

一个人的生活

2011-09-29T17:48:00.002+08:00

三个星期就这样过去了，
一开始还觉得很长，
但当快要结束时却突然觉得很短，
感觉一眨眼就过去了。
虽然有千千万万个不舍得，
还是要舍得。
因为不可能一辈子都陪伴在你身边。
我知道是时候要学习独立，
有什么事都要靠自己去解决，
他们再也不在你身边帮你去解决，
只可以和他们分享，
听他们的意见。
在这三个星期里，
昨晚是最痛苦的一晚。
你离开时，
我总是开不了口说任何一句话，
眼泪不停的流，
很想开口叫你留下，
但我知道是不能的。
只能挥手和你说再见...
回到家里，
真的不敢进房间，
因为很安静，很寂寞...
习惯了一打开房门，
你一定坐在床上...
习惯了你一直叫我...
习惯了房间有你...
习惯了睡觉时你在我身旁...

突然间这一切都不在了...
真的有冲动想打给爸爸说要回家，
但又怕他担心我...
眼泪就不停的流，
突然间很怕很怕，
很想妈妈回来陪着我。
我真的很不习惯突然没有你在我身旁...
连睡觉也要开点歌，
没这么怕，这么孤独...
每当想起你，
就好想哭。
有时候我在想，
自己有没有做错决定？
该不该放弃？
真的很想很想他们一直陪在我身边...
我真的很害怕没有你们的日子。

我们是一家人吗？

2011-08-09T22:08:00.003+08:00

这次已经不知道是第几次了...
不同的是这次你竟然还大声的骂回她，
你当她是什么？
畜生吗？
她是你的谁？
辛辛苦苦十月怀胎把你带到这世界，
你却这样？？？
你们分手时你们的事，
请你把自己的情绪控制好点，
不要因为你们的事觉得我们欠你什么，
不要因为你们的事而找我们发泄，
不要因为你们的事要什么态度都可以，
如果控制不了就不要堕入爱河！

my 21st birthday

2011-05-27T23:26:00.008+08:00

today is my 21st birthday...

12a.m. already receive a good good good present from me...
even u didn't give me any present,
but when i see u that moment,
already feel very happy, very warm le...
thank you so much...

at first didn't plan want go anywhere.
cause two days before something had happened.
don't want say it again le.
already passed.
nothing else can talk about it...
at the end go out have dinner with my 'ji mui' them.
haiz...
a bit disappointed lo...
my turtle sister didn't join us cause having group discussion.
and my dearest mei mei not here also...
everytime sure got someone missing de.
but how...
i'm sure that their souls are with us, haha...
like turtle sister,
she sit beside me de arh...
i got talk with her... =)
we go eat steamboat since i feel want to eat, haha...
thank you all of u agree with me...
not agree also can't la,
cause is my big day,
i'm most powerful de, haha...
very nice o...
not only steamboat, also got bbq de...
bbq very nice but then when the butter melt and start jumping, all of us suffer le... T.T
so we just play awhile then stop le.
cause very pain,
can't stand with the butter le...
then just continue our steamboat.
all of us busy with eating,
so nobody take out the camera and take pictures...=）
we keep eating for roughly 2 hours,
all ady very full le...

suddenly popo and nee nee disappear le...
say go washroom..
i also continue eat my prawn,
very nice... haha...
but then feel very hot le,
see see...
they switch off the fans,
don't know what happened?
then follow with they play the birthday song...
few seconds le,
whole shop de people like all very curious...
including me lo...
cz ady few second le also no one blow the candle...
then i turn and have a look...
OMG...
i saw nee nee holding a cake and come towards me...
feel very pai seh that moment lerh...
cz everyone also looking at me...
hao dai zheng jiong e...
but give me a good good good memory...
i'll always remember it...
thanks all of you...

*the cake so match my shirt=> both also green*

*is time to make a wish*

*my 21st birthday cake from my ji mui*

*at the end with a group photo*

thank you all of you...

i know u all might be busy,
but still find sometime to accompany me...
thank you...
i'll remember it forever and ever...
love u all forever... =)

but my birthday end up with sad...
i receive his message that got a girl say love him and ask him accept her...
then i press wrong le,
my phone put silent mode and without vibrate...
so didn't pick up any call from him and reply his message...
make him worry and angry le...
then we argue again...

这是你想要的结果

2011-05-19T12:17:00.002+08:00

什么是脸色？
傻掉了，
爸突然问我读了这么多年的书什么叫脸色？
我也不知道怎样解释。
说我们每天回来给脸色你看，
说我们只会向你发脾气，
说你受够我们了。

現在你們要怎樣！我們是一家人！我不是被檢回來的！我也不是別人生出來的！一個兩個給我臉色看！做工很辛苦不要做啦！不用給我臉色看！吊！FUCK YOU!
我現在和什麼屁都沒用，我媽我姐當我是什麼？什麼都給臉色我看！我會爽嗎？工作做完了回到來一個兩個向我發脾氣有事就低聲下氣跟我說話沒事當我是什麼？出氣袋嗎？
今天不是第一次今天可以說是第五至第六次了我能再忍嗎？我昨天想過自殺我能再忍下去嗎？我是人不是出氣袋子！是他們帶我來這個世界然後呢？帶我來了給他們出氣？我就是受氣的那個
他們不開心需要拿我來出氣嗎？需要給臉色我看嗎？有什麼不爽直接跟我說不要全部都不爽這裡不爽那裡我敏感？我敏感的話我上幾次已經跟他們吵了我不跟他們吵是因為我不想再看到吵架

一家人？一家人是这样的吗？我们全部都在家付出，能赚钱的去赚钱养家，不能的就在家做家务。而你呢？只会对着电脑，对着DVD。时间到了就去吃，时间到了就睡觉，就这样而已。吃了的碗碟就丢在哪儿等我们洗；肮脏的衣服脱了就丢在哪儿等我们帮你拿。你说我们一家人？有吗？你有当我们一家人吗？你当我们是你的佣人。你命好，一出世就有佣人服侍你，不像我和你哥。我们对你不好？什么好的东西都给完你，你好不知足？从小就有佣人服侍你；你成绩不好我们都还要给你去私人学校，目的是什么？要给你一个好的学习环境。你以为私人学校的学费会便宜吗？一年都要10k以上，你都不好好珍惜，都不好好把书念好。我们知道你成绩不好都还要继续让你读，为什么要这么辛苦？也不是为了你好，难道你要去那些烂学校读？变坏学生？只会打架吗？你要这样的学习环境吗？你说我们给你脸色看，什么是脸色？你懂这个词吗？你说我们骂你，可是为什么你就不想想自己做错什么事。一定有原因我们才会骂你，我们不是不讲道理的人。你吃了的碗碟就丢在那里不洗；衣服穿到哪里就丢在哪里；一天到晚就对着电脑玩个不停，不然就看DVD看到不知几点，隔天叫你起床上学又死不甘愿这样。你想想，我们出去工作这么累，回来看到还有这么多东西要做，你自己想想我们的心情是怎样？你在家什么都不做的，又不用你去做工赚钱，要你做一点点事都不行吗？看到这样当然会生气，当然会骂你啊。你就说我们拿你来出气。你已经16岁了，思想可以成熟点吗？你把这些东西写在facebook，要所有的人都知道我们家的事吗？要让大家知道我们有多坏吗？让大家知道你在这个家很可怜？是这样吗？你应该要知道什么东西可以写，什么东西不可一些，难道这一点也不知道？16岁了，竟然还不会自己起床。每天都要妈妈叫你才会起床，如果妈不知醒你就不用去上课了。妈做工都很累了，还要他每天六点起来叫你起床，给你准备早餐。难道你就不能自立一点吗？自己起床不行吗？自己调闹钟不行吗？

我的腰有問題了怎樣跑？不能做激烈運動

说到你腰，弄伤的时候不要说，说会被我们骂，我们骂你也因为关心你。这么大了都不好好照顾自己。到了几个月后有后遗症，复发了，才开口说。这时候我们可以做什么？一直说我们不关心你。医院也带你去了，也给你照 x-rays，连医生都说没得医了，只可以开止痛药给你吃。中医也说无药可医了。那是我们的错吗？是你事发时不告诉我们的。现在已经太迟了。知道自己要不好，冷气就别开这么大。不要一天到晚对着电脑。为什么玩电脑时不见你说要很痛？？？

所以现在我们保持沉默，
什么都不说了。
那就不用说我们骂你，
拿你来出气，
说我们给脸色你看。
可能现在就是你要的结果吧。

不常見面的情侶要做的七件事

2011-05-12T12:18:00.000+08:00

1.信任。
（彼此要相互信任，不能相互猜疑。）

2.坦誠。
（有一天你做了你認為他、她會生氣的事的話誠實的告訴他、她）

3.寬容。
（誰都可能犯錯，當對方誠懇認錯時就原諒對方，而不要死盯著不放）

4.理解。
（他、她可能每天都會給你通次電話或發幾個資訊，但有一天或更長的時候卻沒有聯繫你時，請不要生氣，要理解，因為每個人不可能整天為愛奔走也會有別的事情）

5.空間。
（給對方留點空間，世界就兩種人，男人和女人，所以一個人不可能只有一種朋友的）

6.珍惜。
（要知道相遇是緣相愛就更不容易了，珍惜這份來之不易的感情，兩個見面的時候不要只顧查看對方手機的通話紀錄，要珍惜時間互相訴說思念，時間很快就會流失的）

7.想念。
（要想著對方，天冷的時候告訴他多穿點，如果你看到這日誌了就給你親愛的他、她發個資訊吧，告訴他、她你想他、她了）

8.溝通。
（既然見不到面，溝通當然比什麼都重要）

i'm tired

2011-04-29T22:26:00.003+08:00

i very tired le...
why everyday also like that?
i have been tired.
almost numb, no feeling.
i know very well,
if i have this feeling,
that's mean we going to end soon.
i hate this kind of feeling.
why want like this?
isn't happy?
will you like this to happen?
now already like this,
how about if i leave?
more serious than now?
or end before i go?

if it's like that,
i choose to give up now.
we won't so suffer.
do not want to have endless day.
i really very tired le.
i don't want continue like this.
you already promise you won't,
but...

anywhere,
i don't want say anything le...

sweet memories

2011-04-25T21:36:00.028+08:00

22th APRIL (friday)

last day for final exam,
also last day for my foundation in science.
after this i won't continue at segi college anymore.
last paper quite easy,
exactly same with the question that lecturer gave.
so should be no problem on this paper.
after exam we went out celebrate as we planned.
we going to FUN FAIR with vincent, yong ling, her bf, susan, jia qi, me and my dear.
before we go FUN FAIR,
we went to 1U meet yong ling and her bf,
then we had our dinner at there.
after we round few times,
we had our dinner here,

cause we all too hungry le,
so we didn't take photos on that time.
after our dinner,
we go to FUN FAIR... =)

i used up RM 20 and get these gift...

*spongebob key chain*

*another key chain*

*mini cup- mickey & minnie mouse*

i love this cup so much...
it represents me and my dear...
i'll bring it when i leave,
when see this cup will remember him very much. =)
but then one thing not good is,
one day only can drink 1 small cup of lemon tea. T.T
it is a bad news for me...
but since i already promised you,
i'll do it. =)
after playing,
we go My Honey Moon have our desserts...yummy...

*me&my dear desserts- chocolate favored shaved ice*

*糖不甩*

*durian pancake*

the durian pancake so smelly...
dear ate it,
when he talked,
yer, the smell...
i almost want vomit le...
around 11.30 we go back le...

23th APRIL (saturday)

today's trip is to time square & sungai wang.
four of us, susan,jia qi, me and dear.
we depart from hostel around 11a.m.
almost used 2hours to reached there.
may be because of today is saturday.
so very jam.

*me&dear while waiting Monorail*

when we reached there,
first we went to Marrybrown have our breakfast+lunch
i ordered a fish fillet ,
dear ordered a mushroom chicken rice+ 2 fish burgers.
susan also ordered 2 fish burgers+french fries.
whereas jia qi ordered thai chicken rice.
after eat, we separate..
susan with jia qi and me with dear...
first we go repair my watch,
the spring got problem need change new de.

after repair it then wear it and take picture, hehe...
this also first time we took picture when we wore the watches...
then we bought a couple shirts... =)

*our couple shirts*

*LOVE*

*this is dear de => boy*

*this is mine=> girl*

*backside's design of the shirts*

*we took it after ate our dinner at food court*

we took many pictures on today,
cause after this also don't know when we can meet again le...
so have to take many many many pictures...
although hang out very tired but very happy...
cause can with my dear together.
feel very happy and sweet.
i love u ,
my dear...

my lovely breakfast

2011-04-14T18:09:00.013+08:00

yesterday dear said will prepare breakfast for me,
but then he can't wake up early in the morning.
so my breakfast gone le... =(
keep saying for whole day.
i think he already 'beh tahan' le.
then he prepare breakfast for me. ^.^

he woke up early and prepare it for me...

*don't know what this call, but i know is potato,hehe*

*hotdog*

*fried egg with hotdog,a bit black*

*fried 午餐肉*

*mushroom soup*

my lovely breakfast from my dear =)

thank you my dear to prepare breakfast to me...
i know you very tired,
but still prepare breakfast for me.
although it's not very nice,haha
but you cook yourself,
already very sweet for me...
love you so much.

你走了...

2011-04-02T15:43:00.006+08:00

我讨厌这一刻！
这一刻是多么的残忍...
多么的让人心疼...
令人很不舍得...
一直以为自己会撑得住。
毕竟一起的日子不长，
但原来我们彼此的感情却很深厚...
你要走时，
我不敢前去，
我的眼泪一直要流了...
但是又很想去抱你，
真的很不舍得你。
不过还是前去让你亲一个...

你走了之后，
突然觉得很寂寞，
变得很安静，
再也没有那吵闹声，
嘻嘻哈哈的笑声，
那可爱的声音，
不知几时再能出现...
真的有点不习惯，
好想你哦...

i won't ask you anymore

2011-03-27T11:47:00.002+08:00

i ask you because i care about you
i know you not happy
i know something had happened to you
but you don't want to tell me
just said nothing
don't ask you
you say anything also will tell me
won't hide on it
you also don't like i hide on you
but then why now you hide on me
and don't want tell me
isn't me have not qualified to know
if like that
start from now i won't ask you anything
you want say you just say it
i won't force you and won't ask you anymore
i know this will affect our relationship
but i have no choice
you decided not to tell me
i can't do anything also

white valentine's day (14/3/2011)

2011-03-19T00:50:00.025+08:00

14th March

one month had passed...
today is WHITE VALENTINE'S DAY.
it's my turn to send dear gift.
gift for boys... oh really hard...
think for long time do not know what to get?
even my cousin brother accompany me go choose gift he also do not know what to buy.
really very headache arh...
finally bought a couple watches.

but if only send the watch it's like too simple o...
really don't know what to do with the watch lerh... =(
until two weeks ago, only got the idea how to prepare for this gift.
at first i thought can finish it by this two weeks.
how do i know the time is really not enough,
need prepare for my tests,
need accompany him,
need prepare the gift also.
really very busy o...
but at the end i still can finish it by time. hehe...=)
ding ding, this is the gift that i prepared for him.

cause tomorrow i have tests,
at first plan not going out with him,
need study for my tests.
but then his friends came here,
so we went out had dinner together.
but hor...
someone didn't know today is valentine's day lo...=(
haiz... if wait him send me gift hor, die ady lo, haha...

since too many people,
i not dare to give him the gift.
so just give him a call when back to hostel,
tell him that the gift is for him.
omg, i didn't think that his friends will see the gift that i gave him.
yer... feel very shy lerh... >.<>this gift really spent a lot of time to do.
i had never spent so much on a guy.
a lot of thought to the preparation of this gift.
everything also did it by myself.
hope you like it...
even thought the card look not so nice...=(

this watch is for you to remember every moment we have taken,
we have everything that happened,
whether happy or sad,
this is our memories.
although I do not know how long we can go way,
long or short,
we have to cherish every minute we are together.
i met you,
is a kind of fate.
that's God wants us to meet.
we should appreciate it.
dear, i love you...

a special valentine day 14/2/2011

2011-02-26T22:11:00.010+08:00

although already passed, but i think i still need to post it.
i'm falling with love with my dear... =)

14th Feb
today is our second time went out.(first time was 9/2)
not same is, today is valentine day, hehe...
after we finished class then went back took bath then we went to 1U.
first we went to pharmacy shop bought medicine for my roommate,
she felt sick... =(
then we went cinema bought movie ticket.
both of us also want watch this movie.

after we bought the ticket,
accompany him go bought present.
he said need buy a present for a girl.
when we step in the gift shop,
he ask got anything suitable arh?
any idea?
then he choose a big bear,
ask my opinion...
then i said ok lo,
girl also will like bear de.
but this bear really very big la(for me only =p)
cause we going movie later,
so we put the bear in car first then go dinner.
at first he said want bring me go FULL HOUSE,
but already fulled, cause we didn't book it earlier.
aiya, today go where also full de lo,
cause special day ma...
all also want pak torr ma =)
we had our dinner at here.

after dinner already 10++,
almost all shop closed.
but our movie start at 12.20a.m.
so we just out somewhre until 11 something back to there again.
then he suddenly take out the bear and give me.
he said is for me.
the bear really really really very big lerh...
i had never receive such big de bear.
but i like it,hehe...
thank you... =p

someone can't wait already.
cause valentine almost end but still can't get the answer,haha...
but finally he also get the answer that he wish to get it.
isn't? my dear, haha...
hope you can remember what i had told you.
all is from my heart.

we can't predict out future,
but i'll appreciate all the moments that we been through.
i don't know am i a good girlfriend,
but i'll try my best to give you all the best.
i love you...

what can i do?

2011-01-10T21:26:00.002+08:00

today is the first day for my semester 3.
really very blur...
morning received a message from faculty that physics class has been canceled due to lecturer was on leave.
then just wait for another class.
i thought is 2p.m.

about 1 something me and suzanne already at the classroom.
but no one is there also,
only two of us.
1.45p.m. started wondering...
are we enter the correct classroom?
are they changing to another classroom?
is the class been cancel again?
both of us went to faculty and check our time table again.
we entered correct classroom.
so we when back again.
but already 2p.m.
why still no one is here?
what happen to others???
so call another friend and ask her.
me: Alyssa, where are u?
Alyssa: at home lo.
me: at home? no class meh?
Alyssa: got arh, 3p.m. ma.
me: 3p.m.? not 2p.m. meh?
Alyssa: no arh, chemistry class start at 3p.m.
OMG,
i'm so blur...
3p.m. class i thought is 2p.m...

after class we bought our dinner then when back to our room.
we thought she go back to her house won't stay at hostel.
suddenly she came back.
then she start clean her things.
on her bed got dust since already 2weeks we're not here,
then she push all the dust to the floor...
walao!!!
yesterday both of us clean the room so hard until midnight,
that time where are you???
you didn't come back and help us some more now you dirtying the room.
after that you use a dry clothes to clean your table.
how can you use a dry clothes to clean table?
all the dust will fly up,
then make the room dirty again.
what for we want to clean the room???
some more Suzanne is eating at that moment.
her table just beside your table.
all the dust fly to her food,
how she eat?
can't you think about this???
even a primary school student also know about it why you can't???
i really not understand it!!!
after that you sweep the floor.
if you don't want to sweep just leave it.
we didn't force you to sweep.
you sweep so hard,
all the dust fly up,
the room dirty and have to clean it again.
i really don't know what can i do...

成绩好有错吗？

2010-12-15T20:04:00.002+08:00

成绩好有问题吗？
为什么大家都把你当怪物看？
就不能当作普通人吗？
成绩好的人也是人啊。
为什么就要这样说呢？
我真的很不明白？
对，上一个学期我是拿满分，4.0.
那又怎样？
那并不代表我是天才。
‘你’也不必要到处帮我宣传我的成绩！！！
就是因为‘你’
很多事情发生。。。
我不能好好的温习我的功课！！！
就是因为‘你’
全部人都来问我问题，要我教他们。
就是因为‘你’
他们开口就说我很厉害，天才。。。
我真的很讨厌这样的人咯。
我也是人啊。。。
这样说很伤人的叻。
我说数学很怕会粗心做错，
你们却说：“做错？不可能吧？你这么厉害，哪有问题？’
拜托，我也是人叻。
人就肯定会做错的嘛。。。
不要以为拿4.0的人就很厉害。。。

don't be a copy cat during test

2010-12-02T19:35:00.002+08:00

i really don't know how to talk with them
Kalai as a group leader
she split the job but she let us to choose ourselves
then i choose edit
but after i decided
i regret already
cause is like last time moral assignment
editing is easy but it's not good also
stressful
cause they keep delay their work
they only will pass to you last minutes
if u can't pass up
is your problem
they won't help you even they're free
i already had experience about this
since i already said so can't don anything la
last friday Kalai already told all of them pass their work to me on monday(29/11)
when she said like that
i already can sense that no one will pass to me on that day except Suzanne
at the end
i'm right
non of them give me their work
i just keep quite
tuesday no class
so i decide tell Kalai on wednesday
before i ask her
she already ask me
then i told her la no one pass their work to me
what can i do???
then she ask Suha pass to me on thursday
then she said cannot
she want study chemistry cause thursday having chemistry test
so only can pass to me on friday
then suddenly Anchalee said :" friday la, i think she(me) can edit during weekend since no class, she very free."
WTF
you never ask my opinion then you just said what you think
is this fair to me???
no class no mean i'm very free so i can edit on that day
final exam coming soon
i also want to do my revision
not only you
i know
i can't blame them
who ask me want to chose editing???
so i also didn't argue with them
she said she want to study chemistry so can't give me on friday
but she's not!!!
she busy with her facebook!!! not chemistry!!!
if you really study your chemistry and give me your work late
i still can accept
but you busy with your facebook
how you want me to forgive you???
then during the test
you also copy someone's answer
not did it by yourself
since you didn't study your chemistry and busy with your FB
why can't you just do your work and pass to me soon???
why you want delay it?
wasting my time
if you wanna copy answer
then what for you study???
no need to study la and no need attend class
just come on exam and copying la
!@%^%@!@%^&&%#@!#$%^
another assignment too
this time i'm not to become a editor
then Anchalee also said not fair
cause the editor do nothing
editing is easy job
who also can do it
ok la, i choose work to do
then suddenly Suha want join with me
then i said no need
after that discuss about the dateline
they ask me not to pass up the previous first
pass up together with this assignment
then i said don't want
i don't want waste my time again
i want do it faster then concentrate on my studied
i know they all (except Suzanne)not agree with me
especially Anchalee
but i don't care
i don't want make myself trouble

since you want be a copy cat during the tests
so next time when you ask me question about any subject
i won't answer you anymore
it's just waste my time and energy to explain to you
what for i want to teach you
i teach you
at the end you only will copy answer
better i use that time to do my revision
don't blame me treat you like that
it's your fault
you want me to treat you like this
this is not your first time copy answer during the test
i gave you lot of chances to change your attitude
but you didn't
so don't blame me!!!

thanks, mum... love you so much

2010-11-25T22:04:00.001+08:00

after i took my bath, enter my room,
then i saw one misscall appeared on my phone.
is my mum.
she called me just now.
i know why she called me,
cause the pharmacy things.
then i just call back her.
when i heard her voice,
i already wanna cry.
then i just go out from the room,
i know i'll cry.
when she talk to me,
really really really very touch.
i can't said anythings,
just said 'yes'
mum, love you so much.
you're the one who understand me,
yesterday you didn't give me any call or message,
cause you want me to calm down,
she know i very sad on that moment.
so she decide to give me a call on today.
mum, i love you....

stop acting! don't thought you very pity!

2010-11-25T21:54:00.001+08:00

nowadays really hard to communicate with them
now not only her(my roommate)
and also others within my group except Suzanne
everything i do. i talk also wrong
then just keep quite la
then all of you said i so ego
what should i do????
i swift my place to behind(beside jia qi)
when i walked i to that row
Anchalee suddenly said:" Haiz...."
then i also sit down la
then kalai turn behind and make some noise like calling me
but i pretend don't know anything and discuss homework with Suzanne
jia qi told kalai try to call name
cause don't know she calling who with that sound
but she don't want and very angry then turn back
after some time
Anchalee tried to talk lough
may be she want me to listen what she said
"Haiz, why she like this? People calling you also don't want to answer people. why want to do like this? Kalai so sad la, so pity."
ok lo, is my fault
then chemistry that time
Suzanne went to washroom
kalai also there
then she ask Suzanne what happen to me?
Suzanne know me very sad cause the pharmacy course that thing and she also know i don't want let others to know
so she also said don't know what happen to me
then she said Suzanne why so ego?
morning that time when she call Suzanne but Suzanne didn't answer her
SEE!!! PLEASE CALL THAT PERSON'S NAME WHEN YOU WANT TALK TO HE/SHE
if not people will misunderstanding
during malaysian studies class
although we sat together
but like separate into 2 groups
me&Suzanne=> 1 group then Anchalee&Suha=>another group
jia qi is in the between
when she want go with us
Anchalee also will stop her and ask her follow them
it's very obvious lo
when the break time
we go buy our dinner
jia qi also wanna follow us
but Anchalee suddenly said:" jia qi, i think you go with Suha la cause she also alone."
that time me&Suzanne still at there
she also said like that
yayaya.... she very pity la
always alone
we're bad girl
always let her alone
everything also our fault

why treat me like this???

2010-11-24T19:55:00.003+08:00

today the schedule really very packed
morning class, 9a.m.-11a.m. having chemistry class
then 1 hour break for us
but me and suzanne(my good roommate) went to library continue study our biology test
cause later 12.15p.m.-2.15p.m. having biology class
and having biology Test 2 later
after biology class then we go eat our lunch
unfortunately
no more my chicken rice T.T
then we terpaksa eat spaghetti
since 2.15p.m.-3p.m. having a talk with the dean of pharmacy
so we have to eat faster
during the talk
the dean introduce about the pharmacy course
what kind of job we can do after finish the degree course
before he end the talk
he told us a big big big news
he suddenly said sorry to us
because the requirement of pharmacy course had changed
at first i thought may be he'll said the CGPA increase from3.0-3.5
but he suddenly mentioned about spm results
OMG
at that moment i know what's going on already
he no need to continue alrealy
i know
need at least 5 credits and 4 B for sub science subjects in spm results
if not
sorry, you can't study for the pharmacy course
that's me
i only got 3B for my sub science subjects
my physic & biology got C
really heart broken at that time
Suzanne look at me
cause only her know that my spm results
i only told her
other college's friends they don't know
i really can't control my tears
call Suzanne stop looking at me
if not really going to be rain in that room
he said not only for our college
is for whole Malaysia's university and college
so if wanna change college also no use
my heart really broken
last 3 months i already met Peter(also under faculty of pharmacy)
i shown him my spm & results
then he brought me met Ms.Kong
she said no problem
spm results not important
if your foundation result is good
no need to look for spm results
study well and get well result for foundation
i already paid all my tuition fees
more than RM10 000
now only told me that i can't study it
if they told me at that time
i still can stop my foundation
no need to waste so much money
really very sorry to my parents
after the talk still have physics class
today is experiment
luckily not class
if not
i really can't concentrate it
in the lab
when i start doing my report
copy the procedure
they all started to talk about pharmacy course
in our gang
me&anchalee confirmed study pharmacy,prishah&suha medicine and kalai study optometry
then Suzanne&jia qi still not confirm yet
still stand at the middle
between pharmacy and optometry
but suddenly jia qi also shift to pharmacy course
when they talking
make me think back my problem
wanna cry
so i went to washroom myself
after i came back
may be from my nose can notice that i'm crying
kalai ask me am i ok
then i said ok cause don't want let so many people know about my problem
i really no mood that time what lecture said i also don't know
so i also don't how to set up the apparatus
just see Suzanne's one
as usual
my partners(kalai&prishah) just sit there and chating there
let me do myself then later just copy my report
this happen since sem1
but i just keep quite didn't say anything
i'm in bad mood
no one helping me
i don't want disturb Suzanne
cause she not same group with me
don't want disturb her
do it myself
suddenly
kalai(always sit beside me) said: girl, can you faster?
walao!!!
you only will call people do faster
why you just sit at there and keep talking
@#$^&()(&^$#!#%%#@@$%
then i said: you want me fast also need some time
she know i angry already
then start helping me
but prishah just sit at there
i don't want said anything
no point for me to say
we still can't get the results
then kalai ask the results from anchalee
can see obviously she don't like
she said: cannot, is private & confidential
walao!!!
you said like that?
previous time when you borrowed my results
i straight gave you
now ask you one time
you like this arh
what kind of friend is this?
this call as friend?
after kalai have a look
she just edit so then just use their results
cause really out of time
when drawing graph that time
suha(my another roommate, which having problem with me) needs long ruler
so she borrow from Suzanne
but that time Suzanne also going to draw graph
so she also don't know how
but she still borrow
then anchalee suddenly said:borrow ruler only ma,no need so angry de
OMG
why nowadays all also like this?
all like toward suha
everything is our(Suzanne&me) fault
FINE
just keep quite don't said anything
what you said also wrong
after class after taking bath
sms to my mum
i know if i call her
i will cry
cause feel very sorry to her
i also ask her not to call me
anything just sms me
i really don't know how to face my parents
sorry dad, sorry mum

18了19了20了，你可以不长大；但你要牢记一些话！

2010-11-01T19:18:00.002+08:00

1. 要习惯不发短信，少打电话的生活。

2. 等待，本身就是一个错误，那就更不要让别人去等你。

3. 请你记住看的开一点，伤的就会少一点。

4. 许多事情，总是在经历以后才会懂得，一如感情：错过了，遗憾了，才知道其实生活并不需要这么多无谓的执著。

5. 毕业是个残忍的季节，成熟不成熟的都要一同收割。一切都会在秋冬交替的刹那间随风而逝，唯有那一泓鲜亮山溪般的记忆永远在我心中哗哗流动...

6. 珍惜手边的幸福，不要等到失去以后才悔不当初，也许，你的一生也就只有那么一个人会真正用心在你身上。

7. 人生就像一列车，车上总有形形色色的人穿梭往来。你也可能会在车上遇到很多你以为有缘分的人，但是车也会有停下来的时候，总会有人从人生这列车上上下下，当你下去的时候你挥挥手，一转身你能记住的只有回家的路.

8. 有的人你看了一辈子，却忽视了一辈子。有的人你看了一眼，却影响到你的一生。有的人热情的为你而快乐，却被你冷落。有的人让你拥有短暂的开心，却得到你思绪的连锁。

9. 不要欠朋友太多东西，因为你可能永远都没有机会还他。

10. 曾经青涩的感受，曾经单纯的表达，

曾经真诚的体会，曾经无法割舍的留恋……

正在经历的幸福，正在憧憬的美好，

正在成长的兴奋与惶恐……走过的年轻，

渐渐地长大，在你我共同的记忆里，

有那些在校园中传唱着的动听的歌。

11.一个人过了二十岁，就不会动不动就许下承诺，也不会再动不动就为了理想放弃这、放弃那。成熟的男人要有思想更要有理智。

12.无论自己身处何种状态，都不要放弃和忘记学习，人最可怕的就是满足，请继续保持野心，有野心理想不一定实现，但是有野心你才会前进，才会不堕落。

13.不要指望对方为你付出一切，你觉得你的重量真的或者应该比父母、朋友更重要？如果说你很重要，那只是比其中一个或几个重要，但是也许在必要时她会为你付出生命！

14.不要太看重梦想，吃饱饭才是一切的前提；不要太看重现实，他肯陪着你，已经是足够了。

15.爱情不是生活的一切，20岁了，应该知道那只是生活中的一部分，天天儿女情长，为情所困的男人连女人都会鄙视他。

16.每当你无聊的时候，总是会给你短信的那个人，才是关心你的人。不要因为习惯就觉得那是应该的。你应该知道没有事又没有企图，还会给你电话的人不多了，如果聊很久的话你应该懂得为什么。

17.每个人都会累，没人能为你承担所有伤悲，人总有一段时间要学会自己长大。

18.人可以冷漠，不可以冷血。比如你在街上看见一个乞丐，你可以不给他钱，因为你冷漠，不要说他可能是骗子，这不是你不帮他的理由；你如果看也不看一眼扔给他几毛钱，那是冷血。

19、爱情是两个人的，如果你只是口头说的多爱多爱，但是当他要求你为他做顿饭的时候，你还反问一句“为什么不是男的做饭？”，那你觉得你配说爱他吗？你是否想过当他父母说你是穷小子，不同意你们时，他为你顶撞父母时的压力。

20.你可以不相信爱情，但是不可以不相信爱。

21.要学会说“你的眼泪，与我无关”。

22.如果手机里的老朋友联系的越来越少，不要觉得孤单，那是必然的。

23.要永远记住感情和婚姻不能建立在金钱之上，选择一个可以跟你同舟共济，可以跟你一起承受人生挫折的人。

24.男人可以哭，但是不可以轻易认输。

25.健康高于一切，理智大于情感，父母永远是第一位。

26.付出没有得到回报那很正常，就像食堂里吃饭，给的钱一样，别人碗里的肉比你多一样的道理.

27.不要为一个心爱的女人放弃自己做人的原则，可以放下架子但不能丧失自己，大男子主义未尝不好，

28.如果不能给一个女人基本的物质生活，你拿什么说出你的爱。

29.无论你从事什么职业，要记住对得起你做人的良心。

30.那些只要求有房有车的女人远点，请把爱多给父母一些吧，不要为了追求自己未来生活的舒适，牺牲父母毕生的心血，你的目标不是努力让自己的子女未来生活的好，而是让父母能过上你现在想要过的生活，牺牲自己，让他们享受到他们应该享受的生活。

31.朋友不需要天天联系，如果他需要你的时候请把他的事当成自己的事去办，竭尽所能。

32. 24岁前你可以有很多份感情，因为那时你年轻，24岁之后请不要轻易说爱，许下的诺言就是欠下的债。

33.请努力的改掉自己的脾气和大男子主义，不要以为那很酷，很个性，应该知道那很致命。

34.不要说没有一个女人可以征服你，如果你愿意，请放下你那处女座特有的追求完美和过于挑剔的特点吧，让自己很愿意去听那个人的话吧。

35.人生有很多改变自己命运的机会，这些机会要你自己去寻找，去把握，而不是等待别人给你。

36.永远保持一颗向上的心，不要沉溺于自己过去的记忆和成绩。

37.要用心对待你身边的每一个人。

38.25岁到35岁，人生最重要的10年。目标是妻子、孩子、房子、车子、票子、面子。

39.要时刻记得感恩于那些在人生路上帮助过你的人。

Why you like this??? I hate la!!!

2010-10-28T20:36:00.003+08:00

@#%$#@$%@!#$&*
Why like this de????
I really very hate la...
I hate people follow my step!!!
I really can't tahan with you...
Whatever i do, drink, use...
You also wanna follow me!
Is that your hobby? I mean follow people's steps?
---I brought water from my house---
---I drank tehboh ice tea---
---I used tissue to cover the mouth of the kettle---
---I used tissue to clean my spoon&fork before i eat---
---I ate what type of biscuits,sweet,foods---
---Even my own notes---
All of these you won't do it before i do,
but then when i start to do that, you keep follow me!!!
And a thing that i really not understand is...
Why you wanna copied my notes?
Notes are base on your understanding.
What you understand then what you write la.
Not means that you can understand all my notes,you know?
I really very angry when you wanna borrow my notes and copied!!!
I really really really don't want borrow you but don't know how to refuse your request,you said you easy to get hurt.
Really hard to communicate with you.
You make me lie a lots.
Actually my notes with me, i kept it under my bed,but i don't want borrow you and copied it, so i said i borrow to XXX, or sometimes i said i left it in my car.
BUT ACTUALLY NOT!!!
Why you wanna follow people step lerh?
You can't do your own things?
One more thing that i can't tahan is why you don't ever clean up your things?
The room already full of dust, you also don't bother.
Not even see you clean your things.
The dustbin is full of rubbish you also won't bother.
You also have responsibility to throw it since you're one of the roommate.
Why can't you do that?
You only know how to throw, then until full, you will call 1 of us to throw for you.
Air-con also!!!
You're the one who wanna make it very cold.
Why you so selfish?
Why didn't think about others?
You make it very cold until us can't sleep well.
You also know that our blanket is not like yours, so thick!!!
Then when we sleep, you go and study.
At that moment you will make so much noise,until we can't sleep well.
In contrast, the next day when we wake up that time, you still sleep then you also can't sleep well.Then all of us can't pay attention in class.
That day i felt in sick,but you still like that!!!
Really very angry!!!
Then the next day you know what happen already,
but i still angry with you!!!
Because you cheated me!!!
I hate YOU!!!
You said :"starting on today, both of you sleep then i also will follow."
But then what you did?
You ask yourself...
If you can't do it, please don't said it,ok???
Then now you keep telling everyone that we don't bother you, talk rude with you...
Talk until is our fault, you very pity!!!
But why you didn't think about it???
Whose fault now???
We also didn't tell others that about our things.
This is among 3 of us, i don't know why you wanna go and spread it out.
You want everyone pity you??? Let people know that we treat you very bad???
If you wanna like that, i have nothing to say.
You continue ba...
@#$%^&%$#@#$%^%$#@@#$%

TEMPTATION OF WIFE

2010-10-27T21:03:00.003+08:00

Why do we meet?
Why do you hurt me?
I've given my all to you.
Why are you still making me cry?
The entire heart break you gave me.
I'll pay you back.
Don't you said I'm bad woman.
Can't forgive you.

为什么要让我遇见你？
为什么要伤害我？
我把我的全部都给了你。
为什么还让我哭泣？
你所带给我的伤害，
我要全部还给你。
不要说我是坏女人。
无法原谅。

happy+sad=???

2010-07-25T13:24:00.005+08:00

One of my 'hao ji mui', maymay, going to leave us very soon. She going to Belgium tonight to continue her studied at there for 4years. When i know she going to leave me, i really can't believe it. I still remember that night, i call her and ask her really wanna go Belgium and study at there? When she answer yes, i really very sad, but also feel happy to her, cause she can study at oversea and taking the course she's interested. Just now when i read her blog, i really wanna cry, very 'bu she de' her. She bring lots of sweet memory to us; her funny face, her funny action, her funny words, all of these can make us laugh until stomache, really beh tahan. That day farewell party, really is a memorable night, don't when all of can meet again?

Maymay, remember that we're your friends, no matter where are u, even we're not beside you, but we always support you. Got any problems, no mater is good or bad, remember let us know, we will try our best to help you. You have to take good care ya, don't get sick, eat well, sleep well. When you free, remember upload your blog, let us know you're good at there. We all concern about you. Maymay, really very miss you now. Lastly, all the best to you, don't forget us, popo. agnes, daipak, neenee, khei and me. Take good care ya, muackssssssssss. Bye, maymay.

End of July

2010-07-22T18:05:00.002+08:00

Finally July is ended...
Haha, all my assignments, reports and tests are finished.
But got another important to do,
that's my moral presentation!!!
Haiz, very nervous la,
Cause have to present my work and talk about it in front of 100++ students.
Really is my first time experience.
Nervous, nervous and nervous!!!
The thing that i scare is i can't speak well,
when i nervous, i'll stuck ady.
And we have to answer the lecturer's question.
Don't know what question he going to ask.
Hope that it's not tough.
Although this is not an important subject, just a compulsory subject.
But also have to study,
I only aim this subject to be pass, enough,
Although is C also consider pass.
Hope my presentation can get 20 out 30 la,
Even my paper can't do well also no problem, haha.
Later go to my friend, maymay's house,
having a farewell party to her.
She going to Belgium continue her studied.
Hope all of us can enjoy ourselves tonight.
Since this's a last chance for us to meet her.
She not coming back 1 year,
only will come back on next year christmas.
Sad...

Moving to another room again.

2010-07-09T21:18:00.002+08:00

Yes!!!
Finally i can moved to my friend's room,
I can stay with them together.
Got advantages and also disadvantages.
Advantages:
- not so boring, cause both of them are my classmates, can talk to each other.
- can study together, do revision together.
Disadvantages:
- cannot online by using hostel's wireless, cause 3rd & 4th floors no wireless system.
- i'm staying at 4th floor now, so have to 'panjat' the staircase.
But i really very happy la,
Stay with them, i won't feel boring la.
Some more, i can sleep nicely.

Already July... sad...

2010-07-04T16:09:00.002+08:00

July had started.
I really dislike July coming.
Cause my July's schedule very full!!!
Every week also got tests, assignments, experiment report...
Aiyo, very very busy la...
Some more the moral studies going to start during July also.
Hope that July finish faster faster end,
but then after July is August.
That means my final exam is coming soon.
Haiz...

A boring day

2010-06-23T14:30:00.003+08:00

Actually today having chemistry and physics classes,
12p.m.-2p.m. is chemistry class and 3p.m.-5p.m. is physic class.
And today also physics's assignment dateline.
When chemistry's lecturer came in the classroom,
she informed us that today physics class will be cancel.
Suddenly all the students shouting,
looks very happy,
but i no such feeling, just like normal.
Don't know why in class like moody,
no mood to talk to my friends.
They thought i'm still headache and not feeling well.
But actually i'm not.
Just feel like don't want to talk,
want to be alone.
Today chemistry class also finish quite early since she finish chapter 3.
But she gave us assignment to do la,
it's in group not individual.
Luckily, haha...
After class also don't know where to go?
Plan to go library, but i didn't bring the things that i need.
If go back to hostel take and go library again is quite tired cause it's far.
Go back hostel also don't know what to do???
Online??? Watching CDs??? Studying???
Haiz, suddenly feel very bored.
Now feel regret that physics class cancel...

无奈

2010-06-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

我想我还是乖乖留在我的房间好了。
我的朋友说她要搬出去了，
不要住在宿舍了。
那就是说我也不可以搬去和她一起住了。
我看我还是要习惯这样的生活，
就是迟睡早起。
我真的很讨厌这样，
真不明白她们这样子会有精神上课吗？
上个星期被她们弄得我也睡不好，
我自己在上课时都会睡着。
她们又怎样顶得住啊？
算了，亦婷，你就习惯下吧！
今天是我农历生日，
不知道为什么今天特别有感触？
吃了午餐后就和朋友到图书馆温习，
突然爸爸打来，
我也知道为什么他会打来，
是要和我说生日快乐。
挂了他电话后真的好想哭，
眼泪就一直要留下来。
但又不想给朋友知道，
就是好忍着而已。
那天27号也不会觉得想哭，
就很平常这样，
一点感觉都没有。
今天就好像特别想家这样。
好怀念那热腾腾的粽子。
我最喜欢就是粽子的糯米，
喜欢一个什么料也没有的粽子，
就只是糯米。
每年在端午节都会吃到，
但今年却没有。
没有时才会想要。
人就是这样，，就是要这样才会珍惜。

休息，我需要你！

2010-06-10T12:13:00.003+08:00

这个星期真的好大压力，
因为连续两天都有考试。
星期三-physics，星期四-mathematics。
physics对我来说真的很难，
因为自从中五毕业后，
我也没读这科了。
所以我要花很多时间在这科。
这几天都睡不好。
上个星期五，
有一个室友已经搬回家了。
所以我房间有一个空位。
我的朋友在三楼一个人睡，
她想说搬来我房间。
但因为另外一个室友比我早进来，
所以我也得问她看有没有朋友要搬进来。
她说她有朋友考虑要搬进来，
因为她房间的冷气坏了而且又没风扇。
没办法咯，
只好让她朋友进来了，
怎么说她在这间房间比我久。
她星期一晚上就搬进了。
不过只拿枕头和棉被而已，
东西明天才搬进来。
星期二下午她就开始搬她的东西进来了。
哇，她的东西真的好多哦！
真的不知道她从哪里来的？
suzanne从沙巴来也没拿这么多东西啊。
她会不会夸张了一点？
都有一部手提电脑了，
还要拿一部desktop???
而且还要三四个桶？
要有一个抽屉橱...
本来房间很大的，
突然觉得好小了，没什么空间。
天啊！因为她，我要把我的桌子移开。
害我晚上读书时不够光线了，
因为桌子不再桌灯下了。
好暗哦，很难温习。
没关系了，算了吧！
但有样东西不能算的就是，
他们一直讲话，
吵到我睡觉。
都已经几点了？还不睡觉？
一点多了叻？明天还是早课？
你们不用睡的吗？
被他们吵得也睡不到了。
只好等她们睡我才可以睡。
隔天早上也被那新室友吵醒了。
才七点多而已，我的课是在下午。
她就不能体谅别人的吗？
自己醒了也要吵醒别人吗？
整理东西不可以小声点吗？
就这样给她搞到我不能睡了。
心想：今天我还有考试，昨天被你们吵得睡不到，今天一大早又被这新室友吵醒了，我现在真的很累啊，等下还要上课，上完课还有考试，哪里够精神啊？？？快崩溃了啦！！！
等他们去上课时，我起来了。
去刷牙洗脸，打算要再温习一下。
反正也睡不着了，一直躺着也没用。
还是没心情，就去洗衣服先吧。
回来后，突然觉得好想哭。
因为我真的好累好累，
但是又不可以好好睡一觉，
还要应付考试，
怎么办？
不久就哭了。
突然朋友打来叫我去他们房间一起温习。
我擦干眼泪就上去了。
上到去也没告诉他们发生什么事。
直到晚上在她们房间温习数学时才告诉他们，
他们立刻叫我搬上来睡，
不要在那里睡了。
有一个朋友还叫我搬去她房间，
因为只有她一个而已。
但是她的房租RM350哦。
我现在住着的是RM250而已，
突然要加一百块，
觉得好贵哦。
唉，再考虑考虑吧！

EXPLORING

2010-06-06T19:31:00.002+08:00

Because coming this wednesday and thursday having physics & mathematics tests, so i ask dad send me back to hostel early.
Actually saturday evening i already here.
But i just find my friends today.
Then 3 of us go eat our lunch at cova square.
After that i went to their room to chating.
Another friend came back at afternoon.
We plan to explore someway, but we don't know how to take bus.
I call Agnes but she didn't pick up her phone.
Then, we plan to ask the security guard at downstair.
We quickly change our clothes, can have a move to there and ask.
Then we just follow her instruction,
"go out from the backdoor, then cross the road, you'll see the bus stop is there, you can take any buses, and stop at ikea, from there u can go to the curve & ikano."
Ok, we follow.
But we can't see any bus stop at there,
Look like we're missing already.
Then we just stop and call another friend which know how to go there.
Actually we are over already.
After cross the road, we need to go up and cross the drain,
the bus stop is there.
Then we move back and cross the drain.
About 5minutes later, the bus is coming.
And we also can reach there safely, haha.
We took picture with birds, it's real birds,
RM10 for each photo,
since 4 of us, then we just took a photo of RM10 and divide by 4 lo,
That's mean only need to pay RM2.50 each person.
Fuyooo.... first time took picture with the birds,
So scary, but quite nice la, first time experiened.
NICE！！！！
We also go to the curve and have a look.
We go back on 7o'clock.
Wow, today really very happy la.
We hang out together and took picture with birds.
It's fun!!!

生日快乐

2010-05-27T21:06:00.004+08:00

今天是我的生日。
华人会说是21岁生日。
大家都会说21岁生日时一定要庆祝。
以前的我都好想庆祝生日。
但是不知道是不是长大了，
所以生日对我来说也只不过是平凡的一天。
不同的是，这一天会有很多人祝贺你‘生日快乐’。
有时也会收到礼物。
所以今天也只不过是平凡的一天。
上星期日爸妈已经买了一部手提电脑给我。
他们说过，他们会在21岁生日时买一部手提电脑给我们。
哥哥之前21岁生日时也买了一部。
所以我也不例外咯。
表哥和我们一起去买，
因为他比较清楚哪一部适合。
其实我真的没有意见，
他说这不好就这部咯。
由于哥哥没庆祝生日，所以我也不要庆祝，
这样才公平嘛!
今天刚好是星期四，
可以回家。
会的时候就去三姨那里拿蛋糕。
她准备了一个tiramissu蛋糕给我。
我没试过这个口味，
因为对我来说，
这应该有咖啡的味道吧。
而且我也不喝咖啡的。
没关系咯，反正没试过，
就回去试试看。
回到家吃了吗咪准备的粥都好饱了，
所以都吃不下拿蛋糕。
但又好像吃哦，
没关系啦，就切一点点试试。
天啊！果然是有咖啡味道的。
虽然我不喜欢，
因为是阿姨送的，
怎样也要吃一点不然就很浪费了。
阿姨他们都问为什么没有庆祝？
因为表弟下个月19号在家办生日会。
我觉得情不庆祝也是一样啦，
而且没什么好庆祝的。
反正我的心愿也已经达成了。
我很满意了。
因为过去几年，
每当接近我生日时，
爸妈都会吵架的，
我都很不开心都会哭，
但今年就不同，
他们还是这么恩爱。
看到他们这样，
我也心满意足了。
亦婷，生日快乐。

first class

2010-05-18T13:37:00.003+08:00

Today first class is physics.
The class is small, we also have quite a big number students in the class, i think is around 50people there.
The lecturer is a chinese girl, quite like her.
Long time didn't touch for physics,
i remembered the last time i studied physics is during form5.
I know i have to pay lot of attentions on it.
The class start by intro ourself 0ne-by-one.
Have to said what's your name? where you from? what have you study before this?
Finally got 1 girl also from Serdang.
She also studied at SK before, she's Daisi3, I'm Daisi4.
I know her, cause she's the one who transfer to our school during the last year(Form5).
Unfortunately, she don't know me.
She said she only studied at there one year, so she don't familiar with those things in that school.
Although we're from same school before, but we also don't so close to each other.
So now we're same college again, but we also not much talking.
I also met a friend, she's kalai, also studied for form6 before this.
She wants to study optometry, but her cgpa is not enough to study it,
Same as me, my cgpa also not enough for me to study pharmacy.
That's why i have to study foundation of science first.
Haiz, it's boring.
Nothing for me to do,
the course just started,
so not much homework to do also.
Just stay in my hostel...
Boring arh..........
Hope got lots of homework to do after this,
so i won't feel boring.
Am i stupid arh?
I think nobody will hope that they'll busy with their homework so won't feel boring.
Haha, i think i'm the stupid one.
But i really very boring at here.
Here still new to me,
environment, friends, all the things at surrounding...
I hope that can suit myself in this environment soon.

College's life is started.

2010-05-17T21:20:00.002+08:00

Today is my first day in segi college.
My new life is going to start from here.
Since it's first day for the new intake's student,
so there's no any class on today, just orientation.
That day my agent told me that 9.30a.m. the registration is going to start and the orientation will start at 10o'clock.
Ok, then i wait until 9.20a.m., start walking to the lobby there.
Huh? Why no one is there?
Am i the only one who is the may intake's student?
After i sign the attendance, got 1 girl bring me to the auditorium hall since i don't where it is.
When i reached there, OMG, there's lots of people.
I just squeeze myself in to the hall.
Actually the orientation start at 9.30a.m.
I'm late, but it's ok, cause some of them is later than me.
Since i'm late, so i didn't get any seat, just stand at there.
About 20minutes, some of the staff bringing some chairs for those who standing at behind.
I got my seat from them.
Have a seat and start listen the guy talking about the college.
Until 12.30p.m., is our lunch time.
After lunch, we just enter the class written on the paper according to what course you take.
Then i just enter my class la, the class is for foundation in science &commerce.
It's lots of students, but those who taking science is few compared to commerce.
Base on the schedule given, our orientation is end at 5o'clock.
The head of foundation told us our class will end within 1hour.
Wow, everybody clap their hands. Hehe, it's too good.
We also got our time table for semester 1.
Only study for 4days, Monday till Thursday, no class for Friday in Semester1.
The time table given is quite free,
Monday & wednesday, the class start at 12p.m. till 5p.m., one hour break between 2p.m.-3p.m.
Then tuesday & thursday, only 1 class, that's 9a.m.-11a.m.
Semester1 only got 3 subjects, there are Chemistry, Physics, and Mathematics.
OMG, i didn't touch my physics for long time.
Physics is quite tough for me now, so i have to put more effort.
No only Physics but also all the subjects.
The class with started on tomorrow, so nervous.
Don't know who will sit beside?
How 's my classmates?
Are they nice? Bad?
Hope tomorrow is a nice day.

2010-05-16T20:18:00.002+08:00

明天就要开学了，
所以今天就搬了进来宿舍。
本来是打算下午三四点这样才来的，
可是爸妈要看汤杯决赛-中国vs印尼!!!
再加上弟傍晚有补习，所以只好提早在我去宿舍。
其实我一点也不紧张，
因为也不是第一次因为读书而不在家住，
之前读form6时也是搬去阿姨家住，
不同的是，这次是和陌生人一起住。
相处是会有点困难的。
这也是我怕的事。
大概十二点多就到了。
我们先去付钱，
之后才去宿舍。
到宿舍时，call了agnes下来帮忙。
然后爸爸和弟弟就帮我把行李拿下车，
妈咪，agnes和我就近房间看看。
OMG!!! 这是我的房间？？？
不可能吧？？？
大半的位子已经给一个室友霸占了。
连我的locker我也要钻进去才可以开。
看到这样，
心里觉得我和我的室友会很难相处，
突然有点怕。
之后agnes建议我搬去她的房间，
因为她考完试后就有三个月假期，
她将会退房。
话说完，她带我和妈咪去看看她的房间。
天啊!果然是完全不同的。
在那里，我觉得会舒服很多。
然后我们便下楼和负责人说，
他说可以，等agnes搬走以后倒回去和他说一声就可以了。
妈咪就叫我忍一个星期咯，下个星期就搬去agnes房间。
不一会儿，爸妈他们就离开了，
离开时还叫agnes照顾我，说我很爱哭。
是，我真的很爱哭。
因为当他们离开时，我已经想要哭了。
之后和agnes回房间弄些东西，
一会儿，她就会房了，因为要温习功课，考时要到了。
所以也不好打扰她。
一个人在房间，收拾下东西。
不一会儿，agnes敲门，
说要去吃东西了。
我，她还有她一个朋友，
走路到对面的secret recipe吃午餐。
吃完后她们也回房间继续k书，而我也会房间了。
太闷了，
所以打给三姨，因为她在这里附近做工。
三姨说她来载我去她的店，
也好，有人陪陪我聊天。
我也顺便买了一些面包回来吃。
回到了，就先去冲凉，下午出了一身汗。
突然觉得自己带很少东西来，
冲凉也觉得很麻烦。
没有钩子挂衣服...
有钩子的厕所却把钩子吊得高高，我这么矮怎样挂？
那沟渠也塞住了，
黑黑的水全出来了。
快快冲完就是了。
之后回房间就看到agnes的信息说她把她的laptop借给我，
让我可以上网，那我就不会这么闷了。
agnes真明白，我的确很闷，因为只有我一个在房间。
真的要谢谢agnes，帮了我这么多。
小小粒,谢谢你，muacksss!!!
好想打回家，
但是又怕自己会哭，
都是不要了，
明天先吧。
明天开学了，
不知道会怎样？
不懂和我同课程的人会是怎样？
难相处吗？
有点怕怕...

失眠

2010-04-27T22:30:00.001+08:00

再次失眠...
好久都没失眠了。
失眠真的很痛苦，
隔天早上上班时又没精神，
真的好讨厌失眠。
叫我怎么不会失眠呢？
满脑子都在想着要怎样开口向老板娘辞职。
我快要崩溃了。
想好了要怎样说，
但看到她时却又不敢说。
一直在拖拖拉拉的，
就来要开学了啦，
怎么办？
谁要打救我？？？

开学了？不是吧？！

2010-04-26T18:50:00.002+08:00

好突然，
突然告诉我再多两个星期这样就要开学了。
我真的一点心理准备也没有。
怎么办？
今天我下午才上班，
所以爸妈一大早就载我去segi college，
问问我要读的pharmacy course。
walao，超级塞车的，
真的beh tahan了。
如果要我每天都这样驾车去上学，
每天都要塞车一个小时多才到，
我宁愿住在宿舍好了。
一个小时半，我们到了。
觉得这间学校好陌生，有点怕，
怕自己适应不来。
很快的就有人来为我们讲解我们要的课程。
她叫elaine。
她看了我的成绩之后，说我的成绩不够好，
如真的要读pharmacy的话，
不是不可以，
但要读一年foundation，
意思就是说我的stpm成绩没用了。
算了，这我也预料得到了。
竟然我真的这么有兴趣，
就不要放弃，
要坚持下去。
但是对我来说，
五月开课真的有点快。
因为我还要对老板娘交待。
怎么办？
突然告诉她我要提早离开吗？
真的觉得很不好意思。
一开始就答应了她做到五月尾，
但现在突然和她说我要离开了。
突然不守诺言，
心真的很不好过，
而且她到现在都还没请到人。
这样就离开心真的很不好过。
希望赶快有人来interview这份工。

我真的要放弃吗？

2010-03-16T22:49:00.003+08:00

其实成绩出来时我就知道了，
我的梦想已经完了...
只是爸妈不知道，
他们还以为很好，
一直安慰我。
我不想他们担心，所以我就没把事实告诉他们。
他们一直叫我去问imu，
我知道以我的成绩我是进不了的。
所以我没去问。
教育展来临了，
爸妈带我去看看有什么好的学院。
他们也去了imu一趟问问，
那女的很直接说我读不了pharmacy。
其实我也知道了。
但没想到她这么直接。
他问我为什么这么想读这科？
我愣了一下，
因为我不曾想过这个问题。
到底是为什么呢？
我喜欢配药给人家，
还没打这份工之前，我都不曾了解这科到底是怎样的。
但是做了这份工之后，
看着配药师每天都配药给顾客，
我也好想自己是这样。
他建议我去读pharmaceutical chemistry，
简单来说就是制药师，
读不到配药师还可以读制药师，
还是可以碰药。
但是我的兴趣不是在于药。
他也建议我可以去读护士系。
他还说现在世界各地都很需要护士，
在他们学院读，还没毕业已经很多医院要跟他们的学生签约。
一个月的收入可以高达RM10,000.00。
我真的不是到怎样？？？
我该放弃我的梦想？
我不知该做什么决定？
谁可以打救我？？？

再见了，哥哥。

2010-03-11T08:04:00.004+08:00

哥哥回去了。
昨晚我们一家人+哥哥两个朋友，
一起送他去飞机场。
这次去送机的人不是很多，
气氛应该ok点。
等我放工之后，
我们就去附近的干肉骨茶，
享用哥哥离开马来西亚的最后一餐。
爸妈还在开了可两罐从澳洲买回来的鲍鱼，
拿去肉骨茶那里吃。
时间过得真快，转眼就八点了。
我们回家拿行李，等哥哥大解后我们就出门了。
在去飞机场的途中，哥哥就开始拨电话给朋友和亲戚，
和他们道别。
而他也开始哭了，
看到他这样我也好想哭，
但只好忍着。
哭了就休息一下，等他的气顺回时又继续的拨。
很快的，九点这样就到了机场。
因为我们知道他的行李时超重了的，
所以要早点check in，
早点弄好就比较安全。
哥哥的行李真的超重了，我们也预料得到了。
但是没我们想象中的多，
超重了6.9kg。
原本想付钱的，
但是很贵叻！！！
1kg要RM91.
所以就只好拿些东西出来。
哥哥没得拿回日本咯。
连我买给哥哥的rojak酱也被拿出来了。
弄好之后我们就去Mc.Donald叫点喝的和吃的。
那时候都十点了，
哥哥十一点多这样就要进去了。
我们就坐在那里一起聊天，拍照。
很快的，时间已经到了。
哥哥要进去了。
给大家最后一次的拥抱。
这个拥抱又不知道要等到几时才会有。
哥哥也开始哭了，
而我们却忍着，
怕他看到我们哭，他会更舍不得。
“眼泪在心里流”就可以了。
哥哥很快的就进去了，看不到他了。
我们也回家了。
在车里，大家都很静。
回到家，才躲在房间哭。
在爸妈面前哭，怕他们会更难过。
哥哥，一路顺风。

一个月就这样过去了，真快！

2010-03-09T22:32:00.005+08:00

时间过得真快，
转眼间一个月就这样过去了。
明天已经是3月10日了，
也就是说哥哥要回日本了。
真的百个千个万个地不愿意让他回去，
但是这是不可能的事，
哥哥会去日本要忙搬家的事，
然后不一会儿就要开学了。
而且最重要的是嫂子等着哥哥回去。
这次离开，也不知道哥哥几时才会回来？
而且也不知道我们一家五人几时有才可以团聚？
万一我在我在今年或明年就出国读书呢？
那到时候我们相聚的时间就会更少了。
小时候的我总想快点长大；
但是现在的我却不这么认为。
当我们长大时，我们就会各奔东西，
前往自己想要去的国家深造，
就像哥哥这样去了日本读书。
就因为这样我们一家人相处的时间就越来越少了。
就像现在...
明天哥哥就要回去了，
我知道我一定又会忍不住哭。
虽然这次不是第一次了，
是第三次了，
但是还是千千万万个不舍得。
不管怎样，嫂子还日本默默地等哥哥回去。
希望下次她会和哥哥一起回来。
期待哦...

新年快乐

2010-02-23T22:11:00.006+08:00

进了一月以后，从part-time变成full-time以后，
我就变得很忙了，
不是9a.m.-6p.m.就是1p.m.-9p.m.或者9a.m.-9p.m.
真的很忙，很累很累。
再加上新年也快到了，以前的我可以帮忙打扫，准备菜单要买什么，陪爸妈买年货，
但现在的我，却忙于工作。
但又很过意不去，看着爸妈东奔西跑的，
所以有时候放工回来了要帮忙做点东西。
现在才稍微有点时间，所以要把新年所发生的事给写下来。
10/2（年二十七）
妈咪老是告诉爸爸说哥哥不会在除夕夜回来，
他说哥哥会在除夕就会到家。
爸就转告给我，但那时候我真的很忙...
11/2（年二十八）
今天六点半就放工了，回到家也算得空，
所以就上上网，就去看哥哥女朋友的部落格。
啊？什么？竟然被我发现了一个天大的消息！！！
她写着哥哥会在明天（13/2）造成就要去飞机场回来了！！！
真的各妈咪说中了，哇，真的好兴奋哦。
我们就知道哥哥会提早回来，但是他就是不认。
我还特地打去日本，骗他说妈咪想和他聊天叫他上线，
他却说他在做工，坐到天亮才回家，还说明天晚上才聊，
他的意思是说明天等他回来马来西亚才聊，他以为我们不知道。
挂电话之后，我告诉妈咪他骗我们的，他那里这么静，都不是在做工。
我们又确定他明天是不是真的回来，我一直吵爸妈明天去飞机场等他。
但是我们都不知道他搭那班飞机回来，而且有不确定他是不是回来。
真的很想去接他，上次他回来我也没去接他，因为他们要给我惊喜，不给我知道哥哥回来，所以这次我一定要去接他。
12/2（年二十九）
今天做下午，但一大早起来就赶快开facebook，看到哥哥给comment说今年新年有谁会回来呢？其实是他自己回来，哈哈。
但奇怪的是他的手提上线的，那表示他在飞机上了吗？
一会儿，我就下线了。
到十点多这样，又再开回facebook，哥哥已经下线了，表示他在飞机了吗？前往着北京吗？
好心急哦，好想快点确定一下哥哥是不是真的回来。
哥哥女朋友的部落格又开不到，说要密码，我又不知道，有联络不到她。
那就只好等咯，乖乖去做工了。
突然妈咪打来，她说已经确定了哥哥真的回来。
她刚才打给哥哥了，哥哥在北京了。
在妈咪的逼问下，他揭穿自己了，哈哈。
突然间想今天的时间快点过，快点到晚上，那就可以去接哥哥了。
不知不觉也到了晚上，回家冲凉就和家人去飞机场了。
因为我们不知道他坐哪班机回来，也不知道他几点会到，我们就提早出门到那里等他。
到达机场第一件事就是看哥哥几点会到，
天啊，竟让有两班飞机是从北京回来的，那哥哥到底在班飞机啊？
算了，那就只好等。
现在才知道等待一个人是这么辛苦的。
我们等了一个小时多，都还不见哥哥。我的肚子也在打滚了。
六点多是吃了一个面包到现在而已，好饿哦。
开始有点担心哥哥了，他有事吗？行李有问题？
好多问题出现在脑海。
我试着打他的手提，通了！！！而且不像平时我们打给他的声音，是在本地的。
那证明他到了，但是还没出来。
为了确保他真的到了，信息他，问是不是在等行李？
他说是，那总算放心点了。
过了二十分钟这样，我亲爱的哥哥终于出来了。
他真的好瘦好瘦呢！瘦得我们都认不出是他。
看到他这么瘦，心里真的很难过。
妈咪看到哥哥这么瘦，眼泪也在眼睛打转，
我知道爸妈都好心疼。
哥哥终于安全回到了，我们就去医肚子。
回到就都两点多了，但还很精神。
哥哥在他行李箱拿出他买回来的手信。
爸爸-茶叶
妈妈-洗脸霜
我-好可爱的香水*谢谢嫂嫂*
弟弟-psp
因为我明天还有做工，爸妈一直赶我去睡觉。@_@

free lunch

2010-01-11T20:58:00.002+08:00

Today i had a free lunch.
Wakaka...
Someone ajak me go lunch together,
And paid for me.
So shock Ooo...
No need i paid money, haha.
But i also didn't ordered expensive meals la,
A plate of pasta + peach tea = RM9.40.
Quite full.
First time got people company me having lunch.
Won't feel alone and boring.
I thought we won't be close anymore.
I thought that we won't find each other.
I thought form1 school's life is our last time to meet each other.
Really very surprise that we can sit together and having our lunch together.
At first i scare that no topic for us to talk when we meet at restaurant.
Luckily we got lots of topics to share.
When we walked in the restaurant,
Suddenly the next table's people looking at us.
Is his collegue.
Oh, quite shy la.
All looking at me, they thought i'm his gf.
Actually not lo, we just friend.
After we finished lunch, then i went back to my working place.
He too...
But anywhere, have to thank you for his free lunch, haha.

bad luck

2010-01-07T20:22:00.003+08:00

Long time didn't update my blog.
Really very busy for these few days.
Cause now working as a full timer.
From 9a.m.-6p.m. (MORNING) or 1p.m.-9p.m. (AFTERNOON)
Now almost everyday work morning shift.
But Tuesday is full (9a.m.-9p.m.) and wednesday is afternoon shift.
Started next week, friday will change to afternoon shift.
Cause pharmacist said is unfair to the new staff,
She always work afternoon but i'm always morning.
So have to change lo, like that will be more 'fair'.
These few days lot of problems happened.
Haiz...
I have to pay back cause i didn't scan the items that the customer bought.
Since i'm the cashier at that time, so i have to paid.
Haiz, really very bad luck arh....
First one is medicine cost RM50, this customer is our company member, so we have contact number, we can contact him and ask him came back to pay for us.
I have to call him, cause is my fault.
Is me who make this case to happen.
Walao, have to call the customer ask him to come back and pay for it.
If i'm the customer, sure i'll be angry la.
I can said that you cheat my money or what la...
I think not only me, all people also will be like that de.
Ok lo, i call lo...
Luckily no one answer my phone.
But another day, supervisor help me to call him.
This time the fella got pick up the phone.
Oh, the fella really very angry when he heard it.
Then just said he's oversea now, wait him came back first.
Already 1 week plus, but he didn't appear until now.
I think i really have to pay for it.
Second case is the customer bought a bottle of panadol.
I remembered that i had scanned it, but after i scanned, i didn't check it again from the computer and straight away take money from the customer excluded the panadol's money.
Cost RM10.80.
That not our member, so can't contact him,
Therefore i have to pay for it again.
Haiz...
Really have to be more careful.

cashier

2009-12-22T22:16:00.003+08:00

Today my job is work as a cashier.
First time be a cashier.
At first, i thought it's good to be a cashier.
If be normal staff, you have to clean up all the things on the rack,
Have to walk around when have customer come in.
If you finish clean up the things, then you will be a "sha po" walk here walk there, can't just stand at there or take a chair and sit.
So i envy be a cashier.
Everyday also got people come and buy things.
So sure got works for cashier to do.
At least you got something to do, no need walk here and there.
I thought it will be very easy to be a cashier, only scan all the things that customer buy, take money from them, give resit to them.
But...
It's not easy too.
Around 1 o'clock, I have to save drop and pass to another shift's person.
Cause i'm mew, don't how to save drop, so Chong help me to do it.
Then my have to count the money in the drawer.
By right, should have RM200 in the drawer.
Then i count count count,
Only RM161...
OMG, first day be cashier already have problem!!!
How can i be cashier in the coming day?
Chong help me count again. Also same.
Supervisor count again, still the same.
Still not enough, RM39 is lost.
Pharmacist also worry about it, ask me whether got count double when i return change to customer anot?
If we can't find out the money, we have to paid it back.
Then pharmacist ask supervisor check the list from the resit.
Finally,
We found where's the money=> RM39.
Had scanned double, that's why lack of RM39.
Hoo... Luckly i'm safe.
But next time really wanna be careful when i scan the items.
At the end, i realize that it's not easy to be a cashier.
It's quite stressful to be a cashier.
Must have 100% responsibility.

accident

2009-12-21T22:16:00.001+08:00

Really very bad luck today.
Morning already got in ACCIDENT!!!
This is my first time who bang pupil and the pupil get hurt.
Haiz...
Since already 8.10a.m., so i plan to have my breakfast near pharmacy lo.
Cause Tmn.Universiti there normally will be jam on this time.
So just go there have my breakfast lo.
When i reach there, i find a parking.
I already parked in, but i notice that the Kancil beside me too near my car.
That car already out of it's place, it's tayar inside my box jor.
If i keep parking at here, i scare later got car hon me.
So better park other box lo.
The road is one way road, in fact no car come from left to right de,
Only can from right to left.
So i just take note at right hand side, ignore left hand side lo.
When i reverse, suddenly "BANG"
OMG!!! I had bang a motorbike and the fella felt down from his bike and sit on the road.
I quickly off my engine and get down from my car and ask the fella got hurt anywhere?
"uncle, are you ok?"
-REFUSE TO ANSWER-
"Do you hurt anywhere?"
-REFUSE TO ANSWER-
I also don't know what should i do cause he don't want answer me.
Then i called my dad ask him come over here.
There got clinic, all the nurse came out and look over here, only 1 burse come and ask the uncle ok anot?
He also don't want to answer.
Ask him can stand anot, Also keep quite.
Really very 'beh song' jor.
The nurse also go back to the clinic.
Then the uncle stand up and move his bike beside my car, and tried to start his bike.
He suddenly shout:" you didn't see got motor coming de arh?"
"Sorry, i really didn't see it."
"you see, my bike also can't start already!!! You help me to repaired it."
Actually when he said like this hor, he still can starts his bike de lo.
His bike didn't broken down lo.
Since my car too out, so i have to move my car in front abit, so won't block other cars.
Then he shout again:" Where you want to go?"
"You want take off now?"
"I just want move my car in front a bit, if not my car will block other car. Don't worry, i already called my parents, they on the way coming, they'll settle with you."
i talk to him nicely, but he talk rude to me.
What the whack la!!! It's not my fault also, if i go police station and report, you are the fella who make mistake.
This is one way road, you shouldn't come from left to right!!!
Keep saying i'm wrong, may be... Cause that is one-way road, i didn't take note whether got any car come from left to right anot.
But why can't you think about yourself???
You are the one who make this accident to occur!!!
If you didn't come from left, i won't bang you and you won't get hurt.
After that i brought him go clinic and see doctor.
Inside the clinic, all the nurses discussing about our case.
Who wrong??? Who correct???
Then the fella act like so pity.
Keep telling all the patients that i bang him la...
i didn't watched out la...
Straight away reverse la...
BlaBlaBla...
Dam annoying at there!!!
In fact i very scared, but didn't cried.
When my dad reach, i cried...
And told him whole story.
Almost time to work jor but still haven take my breakfast,
So i called Mrs.Yeo told her that i'll be late 30 mins cause i got in an accident.
She said ok.
My dad help me and settle and i go eat breakfast myself.
When i went back home i ask my dad how's that fella?
He said:"Bring "him" see doctor lo."
"How much o?"
"RM50."
"Wow, why so expensive? he also didn't hurt anywhere."
"Got injection ma, scare "him" *po shang feng*."
"Then?"
"Help him repaired the motor lo."
"He got scold you?"
"Said bad word lo, then talk rude to me lo."
"If he talk rude to me at that time, i sure go police station and report. No need paid him money also."
"If go report, who wrong?"
"The fella la. That's one way road ma. But next time you have to be more careful. The people at there won't bother one way or two way de, as long as the road can use."
My dad said he also told the fella that that's is one way road.
But the fella didn't said he's wrong, keep saying me.
Said me didn't watch out and straight away reverse wor.
Haiz, really bad luck la!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope won't happen it again.

No mood

2009-12-20T21:22:00.003+08:00

Just came back from aunt's factory.
Today pharmacy there no work.
Since aunt needs help to make calendar,
And i also free,
So go and help her lo.
Just now online, on my facebook.
Got a friend request.
is "HE"
And from his facebook, i realize that the fella who always chat with me at msn there actually is him.
OMG!!! Now only know it.
If i know is him, i won't reply him.
He add me, then after i confirm already.
there's no personal photo at there, i don't know who is this.
So i just deleted it la.
Then after few days, he msn me.
I got ask him who you are, he said no need know who, cause if he told me, i won't bother him.
ok lo, you dun want said, i also don't want ask jor.
Now only know him.
Really very no mood.
I want forget you!!!
I don't want you disturb me anymore.
You always bring sadness to me.
I want you get out from my life forever and ever.
Please, don't disturb me.

Again...

2009-12-19T21:52:00.003+08:00

Today went to work again.
In fact today i no work de,
Only working on Monday till Thursday,
Friday till Sunday is off.
But yesterday i received Mrs.Yeo's call that i have to prepare myself to working on today cause got one staff may be off on today, she said have to wait for her call.
Ok lo, then just wait for her call lo.
Wait... Wait... and Wait....
Can't receive her call also, how lerh?
What should i do?
Actually yesterday i also didn't prepare myself for working, i still watched TV until 1 o'clock.
I didn't pack up my things, didn't prepare the clothes.
Today when i wake up, i still didn't receive her call.
How? How? How?
Already 9 o'clock, the shop is open already, all the staff start working already, i still didn't receive their call, isn't means that no need me?
Ok lo, continue watch TV.
Suddenly my phone rang.
Oh no, call from shop...
"halo, tang arh, can u come now?"
"now?"
"yes."
"okok."
Then faster take bath, change clothes, pack up my things, can go.
Haven take my breakfast also, straight away drive to there.
9.30 reach there, so fast.
When i reach there, supervisor mop the floor, Suk Yee is washing toilet.
Then what should i do lerh?
Better ask supervisor, if not they think i'm lazy.
"sorry, what should i do now?"
"ermmm, u go and take cloth and clean up the tables."
Cloths? Where the cloths put?
Aiya, go and search yourself la.
Finally i got it.
Ok, faster go and clean it up.
5minutes only, finish!!! Then???
Ask again.
"still got what i should do?"
"ermm, u take the cloths and clean all the things on the rack."
CLEAN!!! CLEAN!!! CLEAN!!!
Had cleaned about 3hours, still cleaning.
Need to clean one by one.
That's why i can clean until lunch time.
By the way i received Siow Huey and Pui Ting's calls.
Siow Huey can't go for tonight dinner, Cause having dinner with their family, her sister came back from S'pore, so they celebrate "guo dong" early.
Pui Ting had lost her phone in KTM, no mood go for tonight dinner too.
Two of them can't go, so we just cancel it lo.
Lunch time got 1 hour, wow, dam long lerh.
Go where lerh? one person only, BORING!!!
I went to Mamak's stall having my lunch.
Order one mee goreng + Teh'O Ais Limau= RM4.60
While i'm eating, i sms my friends, can kill time.
One hour lerh, so long. Also don't what to do?
So down...
Luckily got sister's turtle mesag, better a bit.
Thank you... You also have to gambateh o...
You said "为我们乌龟家族争一口气"
I like it, it make me more powerful, haha.
Went back to shop at 1.10p.m.
Continue clean up my things.
If i didn't clean up, i also what should i do.
Isn't like Suk Yee, just walk here walk there???
Boring than i clean up things.
CLEAN!!! CLEAN!!! AND CLEAN!!!
Around 3 something, Mr.Yeo send some things to our shop,
Help Suk Yee carry the things from car.
After Suk Yee mark and check the things, then i arrange the things on the correct place.
But don't know why Suk Yee don't want call me to do by herself.
She ask supervisor to call to arrange it.
Actually i can heard it, cause i just stand behind them.
Nevermine la, just do my job enough la.
After arranged all the things, already 4 something.
Ok lo, all the things had cleaned.
So just walk around lo, still got 1 more hour only.
When customer ask me something i don't know how to answer, so i have to ask Suk Yee since supervisor is busy, but she doesn't want to look at me!!!
She just pretend doesn't know what i said, and ask the customer again by herself.
Ok lo, she want like that, i also can't do anything.
Just continue walk around.
I'm new, so have to use some time to remember where the things put.
When almost time go off,
Suk Yee didn't call me to do anythings.
So i'm like a 'sha po' standing at there, nothing to do.
She turn off the CCTV, air-con, throw rubbish.
Nothing for me to do!!! Hate It!!!
Everything she did already, then she ask me to close the gate.
Walao, i so small call me to close the gate???
Luckily i can pull it, if not... very pai seh de lerh.
After closing the gate, continue act "sha po",
Because supervisor still doing her job,
Suk Yee counting the money.
Me??? Keep standing at there waiting them.
After they finish their things, then can go back jor.
Happy arh... Finally can go back.
Wahaha, i leave the "upset's place"...
Monday continue again, 9a.m.- 2p.m.
Hope that will be a better day.

working

2009-12-17T22:07:00.003+08:00

Today is my first day go for working, at pharmacy.
Ermm, not really nervous la.
Even on the way going to there, i also didn't feel tension.
But when the moment i reach there, wanna walk in,
A bit scare jor.
Especially when i push the door, everyone looking at me.
I thought i went thought shop.
I saw a women smile to me, then i walk to her.
She ask am i the new worker?
Then she bring me to her room, and lock out everything,
Don't allow others to come in, like very secret.
Just talked about what should i do....
The important is don't follow the girls,
If they didn't work well, just keep standing at there, didn't do anything,
Is their problem, Don't follow them...
She ask me what am i going to study at my future?
I said "pharmacy" lo.
She said i very good, some more can learn at here.
Got anything i don't understand/ want to learn, can ask pharmacist=> ZuoRa
She is a nice person, i liker her so much, her smile, her teaching...
The supervisor=> Xiao Chui,
Cashier=> Chui Yee,
Other staffs=> Chong & Suk Yee
I felt that Chong & Siew Yee dislike me.
When i came out from the room, 1 smile to me and another keep stare at me.
When i block her way, she didn't said anything, like beh song stand at there only.
Since both of them work at morning shift, so they went back at 6p.m.
Left with me, Xiao Chui, Chui Yee and Mrs. Yeo( Boss)
Mrs.Yeo keep complain the two girls.
Their attitude are bad, didn't do their jobs well....
I also not remember jor, only know she keep complaining them.
Then, she told supervisor and cashier have to teach me all the right things, said i'm interested in pharmacy, so have to teach me when i don't know.
Wow, when she said like that, sound like she really 'kan de qi wo'.
So scare...
That's why i felt that they dislike me lo, because boss keep 称赞 me.
Haiz, i also don;t know la...
When the boss leave, only 3 of us.
Boring arh.... They only talk with each other,
i'm so lonely at there...
I had got my schedule,
Mon-Thurs 9a.m.-2p.m., But Tues have to work again at night, 6p.m.-9p.m.
This is temporary de, will change on next month.
Cause got 1 girl going to leave on next month.
Now Saturday also no work,
Have to wait that girl go first.
Actually this job not really difficult la,
The important thing is, you have to know where the things put.
So when customer ask you, you can take for them lo.
May be Monday got new thing for me to do ba,
Cause today i work from 6p.m.-9p.m.
So not much thing gor me to do lo.
have to see what will happen on Monday.
I'll wait for you....

gemini

2009-12-15T14:40:00.001+08:00

結果是：雙子座
很不一樣的經驗，是雙子座在2010年的寫照，
不論是在工作（或學習）方面，還是生活方面，
雙子座都會接觸到以前未曾碰過的。
你會去沒去過的地方度假，
你會嘗試沒涉獵過的事物，
你會花錢買以前沒買過的東西，
你會認識不少人，
你做的事（不論是自己要做的，還是被要求去做的）
也多是沒碰過的新挑戰。
這股嘗新求變的現像，
在2011年還會持續下去，
不過你得先在2009/9-11月上旬經歷人事變動。
2010年雙子座的人際關系，
周遭的人事有不小的變動，
除了上述期間外，
還會歷經幾次，
嚴重時有人來人去的情形。
你去玩過的地方，
雖很難得，
但日後若要再去則很難說...。
你要做的事，
基本上都不大好搞，
都要花些時間，
不是一下子就能搞定（結束），
尤其是2010/1月起，
你的事情漸多，
過的不輕松，
在心裡的感受上，
未來有著一關又一關的關卡要過。
2010年（2009/9月到2010/11月）雙子座運勢較好的月份是，
2010/2月，3月，8月，10月，11月。
運勢較差的月份是，2010/4月，5月，6月，7月。

Wonderful day

2009-12-11T22:31:00.003+08:00

Wow, today is a wonderful day!!!
Is too long didn't have such wonderful day, haha...
Really very very very happy ya.
What's really happened???
Haha, today hanging out with my 'ji mui'
There are Pui Ting, Agnes and mysterious friend=> Siow Huey
We went to Midvalley.
Actually me and Pui Ting don't know Siow Huey is there,
Only Agnes know it, she said she'll bring us to meet someone.
I'm correct, i guess that is Siow Huey, haha.
At the moment we reached there, we called Siow Huey and having lunch together.
We went to Itallian Express at The Curve had our lunch there.
All of us ordered spaghetti but all different tastes.
And a chicken creamy soup(Popo shared with Agnes) + my Ice Lemon Tea.
The restaurant is small, but we had to wait for so long.
Especially Popo & Siow Huey.
That's why they can get a free drink. T.T
Because Siow Huey can only came out for 1hour, so we sent her back immediately after our lunch.
Then we went to cinema and booked ticket.
We wished to watch "2012".
Popo didn't join us so only 3 of us.
We went to MPH, i wanna buy a sudoku book, is addicted me, haha. And Popo bought 哥妹俩.
Then we having our tea time with nice desserts.
Agnes- Mango sago, Popo- MoMo ChaCha, and me- 海底椰sago also.
It's was extremely cool when having cold dessert under air-con.
My teeth keep vibrating, haha.
Then we went to Siow Huey's working place and wait her join us watch movie.
By the time, Popo also went back when Siow Huey came.
We thought the movie is started,
Start on 5.45p.m., and we still haven't at there yet.
We are rushing to cinema, luckily it haven't start.
"2012", really is a nice movie,
It's fear when i watched it.
We will die soon???
Nobody can predict it, just let it be.
But if i have a chance to choose it, i think better let water flooded and make me die than all the building broken and knock me.
Is very very very painful...
Anywhere, just wish that it won't happen in our future.
Really very happy and enjoy for today.
No need to think about my exam, homework, studied.
Is a good feeling and can go out with my 'ji mui' only.
Unfortunately, others can't join with us.
Hope that we really can hang out today in one day.
Now, we are looking for our next gathering.
Is on next saturday--- 19/12/09
Hope that all of us will present on that day,
No one is missing, haha...

Finally is ended

2009-12-10T12:31:00.004+08:00

Time flow fast.
1 month of STPM exam is ended.
Today is my last day sitting for STPM...
Wearing school uniform...
Going to school...
It won't happen in my life again and again.
I can throw all my books, notes, memories...
Sometime hate to wear school uniform, shoes with white shocks, caring books to school.
But i know i'll miss all this things in one day.
All papers had finished.
What should i said about my papers???
Actually i'm not satisfied with all my papers that i had answer.
Even my pro subject => MATHEMATICS.
Some also don't know how to answer it.
*BIOLOGY- Paper1 still okay, but paper2 is worst.
*CHEMISTRY- Don't know what should i say?
*MATHEMATICS- Paper 1 still can tahan, but paper2 got 2/3 no time for me to answer it.
*PA- Paper1 is ok lo, Paper2 is the worst, i didn't finish BHG B and my graph is wrong.
Only can talk about this...
But it's over, i know.
I had tried my best for my STPM, i had studied hard for it.
Don't force yourself to think about it, it's ended, you can't change the fact anymore.
Just let it be.
Now is time for you to relax, enjoy your "HONEY MOON" in this few months.
What am i going to do?
The most important thing is i should sleep!!! I'm lacking of sleep during exam.
I should sleep to restore my energy, hehe.
Secondly, i should have a good meal, my favorite "sushi", i'm coming.
After have a long break and meals, i'll go find a job la...
But still no idea, want find what kind of job???
During exam periods, really not enough sleep, can't eat properly, no fun...
So... i should do all this right now, haha...

CONCLUSION = *sleep+eat+fun*

Someone is going to be back soon...
I'm waiting for he come back.
Nonono, i shouldn't talk like this,
is we're waiting you be back...